Chapter 1 MY life

the loneliness of hearing a door close behind you... the feeling of being unloved and unwanted... the feeling of loving some one so much and getting nothing back.... the feeling of being left by the one person who's supposed to love you most... the feeling of trusting everybody so easily and then learning they only wanted to use you...the feeling of losing a best Friend over a reason you cant share... the feeling of crying alone in a dark room... the feeling of nobody understanding that it will never be the same...

All feelings i have had to endure in my short life.. now I'm not saying that i take it for granted because i no compared to some people my lifes great... but sometimes the feelings and emotions are all to much and i just want someone to look after me and tell me every things going to be okay... but it never will be. their a things i miss about life that i guess i did take for granted... my mum picking me up from school. missing a friends birthday party... bouncy castles all the simple things of childhood that i miss... and yes ill say it its not fair this life isn't fare. its always give and take and i felt like life is passing me by so fast now and its a scary feeling. not knowing whats gonna happen or when its going to happen loving someone but being to afraid to tell them because I'm afraid of losing them if they knew the truth :'(

if iv learnt one thing so far in life its that

fear is the only thing stoping me from what i want

and ill tell you a secret
I'M AFRAID
xoxo