just wanted to know

i wanted to know
i wanted to know why my heart tourcherd it self daliy
re-reading your messages... looking at your photographs
laugthing at our memories and crying at our departures
i wanted to know
if when you complimented and flirted with me
why it gave me such an illuminated feeling
why your words like empty promises so light hearted and freindly
were takn so seriosely by my fagile heart
i wanted to know
if your cool calm exsterior was just a barrior up to stop you loveing
if your way of behaving was because you wernt ready for love
or because you hadnt even considered it
or maby becasue you loved somebody else other then me
i wanted to know
if i was waisting my time pondering over lost feelings
that gently re enterd my soul as i looked in to your eyes
if it was worth the figth i was killing my self over
if you saw me as an angel like i saw you
i just wanted to know