:/

been a long time scince my last post should post later on hopefully for now am gonna stick to doing some course wrk not really in the mood for much eles.. been having a tough time recently
xoxo

...

i have a head ache

My head hurts
i have a head ache, its painful
its not because I'm sick and its not because I'm ill
i have a head ache were i can feel my brain pounding on each side of my skull
i have a head ache were it feels like its gonna explode
i have a head ache from all the tears iv cried
iv cried alot
and its because of you


my head still hurts...
xoxo

LELOVE BLOG

saw this on lelove blog, one of my fav blogs in the world may i add and i just had to post it it was to perfect to not post it was too .....

his and hers
xoxo

a wise man once sad

i wise man once said
"hold on to your self
you need to in a world thats always trying to
make you someone eles"

So today had been another day at college, arived early in time to grab a coffie before lesson, that coffie helped... Suprisingly... photography was good i really improved on my skech book today when i have alout on my mind i tend to either zone out and do no work and sit their in a mindless pit of sympathy for my self, or i tend to go over work laod crazy and it helps my mind keep off the problem... today was an over work day.

So after photography had english. oh tht lesson and its sexsual refrences. how can changining a hourse hoffs be like bending down and kissing your lover :/ man modern day poetry is exstremaly ermmm vivid =p

so after english went hom with just louis, then got home cleaned see what i mena about work mode... cleaned all the dishes and kichen then cleaned all the trash cans. Then i wacthed an episod of tree hill miss that show

so now i sit here, thinking again as usual i know i shouldnt it is bad for me and it dosent help but alas i am only human and i can only be human soo :/ ...

will blog later hopefully, with soething more cheerful not so depresing or Bleghhh and some pictures to hopefully

xoxo

Back 2 collegeI

well 1st day back after half term as usuale art was a bore
that womans sucking the inspiration right out of me
its a bit frigthening
adult lit was canceledd thank the lord
i kinda hate that lesson
media was good
i litrally did nothing their was no rooma availble to film so i just continused with some art work
after all that
crappy lessons lunch was okay
really as good a it could be :/
as good as i could make it
paint on a face and continue for now
so after thet went home with lisa :D
ahhh she makes me feel better any problems or worries i have i can tell her know shell keep them to her self and give me the best advice
" i herd my dad pee"
that line saved me from tears today
thank you lisaaaa
because if tears had arisen i would have been a mess
any hooo will blogg later
xoxo


PS i want a tattoo of this with the saying
Rette mich
my fav tokio hotel song means alot to me
and the 3 birds are me and my two sisters i think its lovelyy
:D
xoxo what yall think bout my "birdy" tattoo idea <3

Sunday

Today has been very tireing woke up after a really fun sleepover at lils
watched willy wonka
then came home watched the other willy wonka older one heheh
watched some eastenders then sorted iut all of my cubourd i fianly have new bunkbed and knew wardrobe my cloths hangs wooohoo :) i like them but findidn it hard agisting to bunkbed im used to having floor neer were i sleep pluss iv lost my desk :( lol
heheh
xoxo
college tomorow Beghh :'( x

not my ordinary saturday

My room today after the bunkbeds arivedd i get top bunk ;D eehhehehe

all my stuff got thrown out of the room while we threw my old bed awayy ;P

me today i liked my liquid liner ;D hehehehe
also today got my new laptop charger
:)
now im gonna make my way to lils house drown my sorrows in girlle time
soooooooo
xoxo till next time
xoxo

1 i can count on :)

This post is dedicated to
Nathan Asa
this guy is amazing and has always been their for me :)
hehehe so im dedicateing this posrt to him and his awsomeness
nathan i love you
your an amazing friend
xoxo
;) yur portuguese girl xD
^_^

:'( One of thoses days

have you ever had one of thoses days wer you just wish you family would disppear
i mean im tired of them my dads pissing me off... its anoying and to be honest i cant be botherd to lsitin to it anymore.... just really not in the mood... im gonna rant about it now becasue it makes me feel better.... GRRRRR i mean serouily its not just him tho pissed at all of them lazy never lisetienn and i do love them but sometimes i jsut want them all gone just for a few minits so i can get some friggin peace and quiteeeee :@

i mean this half term has been one of the worst of my whole intire life... like ever... not gonna go in to why as that will be a whole other situautionnn andi cba becasue it just upsets me even more... so this has been an awful half term and you know what im tired of it.... my sisters told my dad to move out and his constant blabbering about it upsets me and im tired of it i dont have a familyy i dont have a happy family i have a disfunctional amount of people who call them selves relatives... havent spoken to my granparents in like a yr havent seen my mother in 4 yrs and the only two people i can honeslty say are always their for me are my sisters....it has always been us alone in the world even when both papernts cared...

so yes im magorly pissed off im anoyed at everyone and everything today and im only excited to go see kay and lisa later... im pissed off ateveryone especialllyy YOU nd YOU know who YOU are and if YOU dont know who YOU are YOUare a bigger idot then i thought YOU were

GRRRR not a good moring so farrr

xoxo

morning

today i need to go out with ana and then cinima with the girlss lisa and kay
gonna be a great day hopefully especialy as theyv been their for me alot recently
when iv needed someone to talk or cry to
saz and lou have helped too :)
i love my bestfriends
xoxo
gonna watch dispicable me
:)

im so excitedddd

Love my new earing that was suposed to be £12 in camden but i got for £5 :P hehehehe
it makes your ear look like its been streched to fit a nail throught it but its fake ;o heheheh
ehhehehe :)
went ike today bught my new bunkbeds
i get top bunk woopwoop
mon gets bottom that was i can fit my 3 door wordrob inside my room xD hehehewell yh thats the one we bought and new matresses at first i was against bunkbeds i mean what 16 yr old wants to share a bed with her sister
but no im thinking about it
the space will be good and i can stp living out of a holiday bag :) hahahahah
night night blogg
even tho im not going bed yet lol
:D happy :D
xoxo

you dont know what you dont know ;)

NEW hair pictures
this is it proper stright
:S lol hehehehe getting loner already
my hair grows soo quickkk
loll

xoxo

Hold on hold on someone will find you, hold on hold on somebody loves you

Good morning, today i have awoken at an early time of 6 :S lol

hahaha anyway after rolling around in bed listing to music for like 2 hours

and getting up to get some juice, i finally got up and now im drinking my coffie from a mug almost identical to this one my pisces mug

ana got me (i love ittt) hehehe

anyhoo been listing to some of my old music i used to lovee
i found this song which i havent herd in monthes scince secondaiaryy
so now im gonna wake up monica coz me her and kay will be going camden soon i cant waitt i miss camden and i miss kay so camden + kay = HAPPY TIMES ^_^ *_* hehehe
i will blogg later coz i entend on taing a huge load of pictures even for my photograpghy course
so i will be looking out for line shape and pattern
and hot guys llol *Stalker styleeiee*
hehehe so i will blogg later and i will have picturess, so now i will be going xua till next bloggieeee
xoxo

NIGHTT bloggyy

Me and lil
i love lil
shes alays their for me and she always
is gonna be by ying or yang lolll xD

mois hair ooks CrAzY after a bath ^_^
hehehehe

Random picture of miii long sockss
;) hahahahahahaaha sexyy for winter lol
xD

Boots natural collection is the bommm lol
xoxoxo
late night post but ya
tomoorw camden with kayleigh
miss her soo muchh
hehehe had a good day tpday inportuguese cafe with lil for like 3 hours lol ahahaha
we cant talk so much
ehhehee

was it worth it

:/

I SCREAM REVENGEEEEEEEEE

Now go stand in the corner and think about what you did
Ha, Time for a little revenge

The story starts when it was hot and it was summer
And, I had it all; I had him right there where I wanted him
She came along, got him along, and let's hear the applause
She took him faster than you can say sabotage
I never saw it coming, nor did I suspected it
I underestimated just who I was dealing with
She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum
She underestimated just who she was stealing from

She's not a saint and she's not what you think
She's an actress, Whoa
She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
There is nothing I do better than revenge, Ha

She lives her life like it's a party and she's on the list
She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it
I think her ever present frown is a little troubling
And, she thinks I'm psycho
Cause I like to rhyme her name with things, but
Sophistication isn't what you wear, or who you know
Or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go
Oh they didn't teach you that in prep school
So it's up to me
But no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity

She's not a saint and she's not what you think

She's an actress, Whoa

She's better known for the things that she does
On the mattress, Whoa
Soon she's gonna find
Stealing other people's toys on the playground
Won't make you many friends
She should keep in mind,
She should keep in mind
Theirs nothing i do better then
REVENGE
^_^

READ IT
i will get REVENGE ;)
xoxo

new hairr

OHH BTW
neww hairrr
^_^ xoxo

sunday shopping ;)

moi with new makeup xD

new jelwry
primark £2 each

Natural collection
cranberry lipstick
conceler stick meduim
liqued liner black
and a brown cant rember the name

moi in the morning

so cold have started warign winter clothss
xoxo

Boring Sunday

Moi today i look ugly but what the hell its a sunday
hmmm in other words monica helped me go throught all my old art work bellow are my fav picese that i did over yr 11
:)
now im watching x factor while thinking
i over thin things
i think so much i think about thinking and some people migth think thats wereied but then i think and think its okay to think becasue i guess if your not thinking
your dead so thinking is heathly
:/ in a way lol

any hooo
will blogg later tomorow when i have time maby next time i thin of something intresting :)
xoxo

Was it worth it?

to earlyyy

erghh to early in the morning to feel like shitt :/

anyhoo bough a new dress yesterday though i would post a piccy
i like i aloutt

no words

Never thought i would feel this way
becuase im the one that pushed you away

:'(tears i cry never fall dry
goodnight

not like a movie

girl: your new girlfriend is pretty.

[i bet she stole your heart]

boy: yeah... she is
[but you're still the most beautiful girl i know]

girl: i heard she's funny & amazing.
[all the stuff i wasn't]

boy: she sure is.
[but she's nothing compared to you]

girl: i bet you know everything about her by now
[like how you knew just everything about me]

boy: only the stuff that count.
[i cant remember what she says when i think of you]

girl: well... i hope you guys last.
[cause we never did]

boy: i hope we do too.
[whatever happened to me & you?]

girl: well i got to go.
[before i start to cry.]

boy: yeah, me too.
[i hope you dont cry..]

girl: bye.
[i still love you.]

boy: later.

[i never stopped.]

Dont trust him even if he dose seem like the "sweet type"

You will never find anyone like me, im like a star individualy carved, 1 in a million, secretly halved, im like a snowflake, complicated awake in the middle of the night, im like a a bird with 1 wing, a sparking dimond without the ring, a band of music with no voice a summer day that you can't rejoyce... you'll regret not holding on because one day i will be gone ♥

Books

BOOKS
books i have recently orderded
from ebay
white oleanader
a book about a girls mother whos arested for murdering her x boyfriend and her daughter astrids jerony throught foster homes
and the notebook
allie and noha
need i say more
thae two of my fav films also
so i thought i would try out the books
:D
hehehe
the notebook is such a sad romantiic film
:'/ :') tears of sadness and joy
xoxo

I CUT AND DYE MY HAIR :)

i got a new hair cut
and yes im my own hair dresser lol ;P
heheheh recently alots been going on with me but not stuff id like to metion on my blogg
anyhoo
:) my head feels so much ligher nd a dyed it dark brown already my blonde strecks are coming back :)
eehhehehe
soooooooooo tonight i gonna do some photography work lisitn to some music wacth HIMYM
and read some white oleander
i so far from beay bought earings the above book notebook by nicolas sparks and also a new laptop chanrger mine died a few weekes back
:)
college has been going well
suprisingly i made loads of new great friends :D
sooo wil blogg mby later before bed or tomorow
:)
xoxo

what i did last sundayyy

Last sundayyyy
i spent the whole day cleaning and doing cw :)
i did all my art and english cw and revisiton pluss somemedia
also cleaned the rest of the house
:) the pic is of my living room
okay im of to have a bath nowww
xoxo

midnight snack

hallo blog
:)
nothing says guten nacth like a good midnight snack
heheh had a good dy today went to see
the life and death of charlie st cloud
it was actually really good emotional
cried abit when his brother dies and stuff
after that took some fun pics with my mates
then went allypally to take more pictures
then came home
:)
wacthed Xfactor hmm not really impressed with it atm :/
hopefully it gets better
gonna go bed now just finsihed eating tho
:) below is what i ate yummy :)
goodnight blogg
:D

xoxo

hello blogg

well today was another one of then insilghtful days
spent the first lesson of the day looking over an exam paper which i passed wit flying couours
the second media lesson f the day i spent edditng a our film with jess and floyed
after that i had are and holy hell the lady was moodey today
must have been one of her bad days poor thing
then i had a hour breck now the thing about my brecks these days is that their never dull and insted of never having anyone to hang with im spoiled for choice of all my fav people
so after tht headed to english lit bought that silly book and wacthed a silly movie about it then had photography the teacher obviosly culdnt be botherd to deal with us so insted let us wacth a photography film which i must admit i strugeeled to stay awake to watch the whole thing
...
tomorow should be going cinima :)
which will be fun
ill blogg later hopefully
yaada yaada
got a head ach atm may take a paracetomole and hope in to bed soon
xoxo
also congratts to my big sister ana who did really well on one of her computer driving
test thinggys im proudd :)

:)

Love is not something I was looking for. I just needed an escape, but falling asleep in your arms night after night and your perfect smile caught me off-guard. We were never too serious, but we were each others. We needed each other to mend. And so we did.

So whatever you do, just don’t let go of me now.